“Freement” is my term for the thrill I get from experiencing expensive luxuries without actually buying them. It’s all about the joy of free experiences, like sitting in a high-end car or playing with the latest gadgets without spending a dime. I’ve become a regular at the BMW dealership just for this rush, and I’m pretty sure the salespeople have a nickname for me by now!
Lately, my obsession has shifted to the Apple Store. Even though my old MacBook still works, I can’t help but visit and revisit the store, dreaming about the latest models. I love tinkering with the gadgets at the Genius Bar and imagining owning them, even though I rarely pull the trigger on buying.
The problem with my “freement” is that it borders on self-deprivation. I struggle with spending money on myself, even when it’s for something I need. I could easily afford a new car with functional seat controls or a faster computer, but I hesitate. It’s like I’m stuck in a cycle of wanting the best but settling for hand-me-downs or outdated models.
This internal battle is about more than just frugality; it’s about the thrill of the chase and the challenge of resisting temptation. I enjoy the anticipation more than the ownership. I get a kick out of walking away from a potential purchase, knowing I saved money, even if I sometimes regret not indulging.
But I’m trying to balance this mindset. While I savor the hunt, I wonder if I’m missing out on enjoying the finer things in life. Why not drive a nicer car or use a faster laptop if it enhances my daily life and is within my financial means? I’m contemplating if this extreme saving habit is worth the sacrifices I make in comfort and convenience.
Can I change my ways? I’m not sure. The allure of saving and the adrenaline rush from almost buying keep pulling me back. Maybe it’s about finding a middle ground where I can enjoy my earnings without feeling guilty or wasteful. As I navigate my “freement” journey, I continue to ask myself if I’m being wisely frugal or just needlessly missing out on life’s luxuries.
